Sunday, February 22, 2015

It's been a while...


Sorry about that!  I'm on the super-busy train right now.  Just came home from a week in Pa visiting family with family.  I love my sisters.  I am so blessed to have them!  Lent has begun.  I am giving up alcohol and sweets.  This might not seem a big deal...but for me: it's tough.  I'm also joining a lenten Bible study which I've already managed to have work interfere with the first two meetings.  Blah.

I have been having random "I should blog about this" thoughts...but nothing that has actually made it to my computer screen.  And now I can't think of them.  Argh.  Old age.

My sister and I spent the hours driving home yesterday entertaining her kids with our cartoon voices.  I think I missed my calling.  I should be a cartoon voice. 

Then we googled and practiced speaking English with different accents.  Ironically enough, a southern accent was the most difficult for us...crazy since we both lived in the south for 8 years and had southern accents when we lived there!  (We have proof of this on home video).  Oh well.  French and Indian were fun.

This morning was supposed to be another half marathon up on the Cape but with this lovely snow/ice/sleet mixture that once again came down upon us, the race was cancelled.  So I ran three miles on my treadmill instead.  Probably not a fair trade.

It's like almost official. My house is going up for rent in August.  Cardboard boxes fill my living room (helps to work in a hospital when you need boxes!) and I'm going to start packing non-essentials this week.  Tomorrow I go skiing with my dear friend and get to hear about her and her family's moving plans.  Another friend is arriving in March with her family to move back into my neighborhood.  Is this normal turnover?  I don't know.  Three co-workers lost family members in the past two days.  And another dear friend had a tragic car accident this past week.  Life is flying by like bugs into a windshield.

And with that lovely, um, analogy? I'll leave you.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Cuidado!



Who knows what tomorrow brings?

God is soveriegn.

The mice are back.  I killed one in a trap upstairs.  And there is one in my screened in porch that can climb the wall as my dog chases it.  I feel surrounded.

Today.  The now.  In the moment.  Baked three types of cookies today for a friend's bake sale: race for the cure.  She'll be by tomorrow to pick up my cookies for the bake sale.

Cleaned another friend's house and made her dinner.  Peace.  Love real friends and really helping people.

Need to get to confession.  Like now. God is good.

Friday, February 6, 2015

Taking eight kids into a book barn



I went with my sister to this ginormous book sale at our local used book emporium today...we had such a blast.  I love browsing through books...I LOVE pulling out a book that I've read before...It's like greeting an old friend: 

"I remember you!  You haven't changed! How have you been?  Wow, so much has happened since last we met!"  I especially love introducing old favorites to my nieces and nephews... "My Friend Flicka? This was the best book ever!  You have to read it!"  "Call It Courage?  Oh, put that in the basket!"  

Even the picture books bring back warm memories...Make Way for Ducklings...how little was I when I remember my grandmother flying in for her two week yearly visit to read that to me while I sat on her lap?  Then we'd grab the left overs from a loaf of bread and drive down to the river where we'd walk along a brick path, throwing crumbs to the ducks in our Chicago suburb.

Life flies by so quickly!  One adventure after the other.  I don't feel strongly that my trip to India with the mission group I signed up with is going to happen.  The visa company made a mistake and presented me with a visa for the wrong dates: essentially expiring the month before I arrive.  I have already spent almost $200 to get the wrong visa.  I shudder to pay another application fee only to find that I am rejected because they already gave me one and they don't want them to overlap.  Going to pray about this.  I might try going solo to Calcutta before the visa I have now expires.  I don't know.  Lol I have a dread of wasting a perfectly good visa!

I might start renting my house in August.  It seems like a better idea to rent right before the school year than in November.  I have a place to live from August to December before I take off on sabbatical for the year.  I guess I'll just trust God and go where ever He leads me.

The more time I spend at work, the more burned out I realize I am.  Stupid politics and personalities that before would just roll off my back are driving me bezerk.  I'll be honest...knowing I'm only here the rest of this year has helped me pull it together and get through the day more often than I want to admit.  Nothing has really changed...I know it's all me.  I've been at this hospital for 12 years, always in a critical, highly stressful environment.  That has to take its toll, right?  

I guess God knows what I need.  It's like when you are in high school and your parents drive you crazy for no reason (and vice versa!).  It kinda works out well cause honestly, it's about time you moved on anyway.  So I hope that this feeling is just a part of God pushing me out of this nest.  And that He'll catch me when I plummet!

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Nothing makes me feel worse...



Than when I'm mean or rude to someone because I'm a crazy, hormonal witch who loses her temper over NOTHING and the person I was mean and rude to is SUPER nice because they feel bad that I became upset and go out of their way to be nice to me.  NOTHING makes me feel worse (at this particular moment I am convinced of this...ask me tomorrow, I might have changed my mind).

I'm getting burned out at work after five days, including being snowed in overnight from the blizzard, almost in a row.  And I hate hormones.  And being almost 35.  And not having emotional self-control.  And talking too much.  And well...lots of things.

Time to pray for humility.  Because I'm pretty sure this craziness comes directly from pride and self-love.  Especially self-love.  Which leads to self-pity.  Time to get over myself.

I have all day tomorrow to get ready for the Navy Housing lady to come on Wednesday to eval my house for their leasing market.  Today is the Super Bowl.  Pats are in it.  Just found out they are playing the Seahawks.  That is nice.  And something about deflated footballs.  Apparently that isn't (nice).

Getting ready to have a lenten Bible study...really looking forward to it!  We've been looking at Scott Hahn's short study program.  I think it will work out perfectly to prepare and cover the 6 weeks up until Easter!  I need this.  I need a lot of things.

I slept in this morning.  I'll be going to the procrastinator's Mass tonight.  Glad God is patient. :o)