Friday, May 22, 2015
"Only need the light when it's burning low, only miss the sun when it starts to snow."
Thinking about the day I sat in a Spanish airport: recognizing that I loved a man that I would probably never see again. How quickly life passes. There was a short story I read once. I forget the author. It was about a man who was given a golden ball with a string. Whenever he would pull the string, life would pass by. He was careful and at first he only pulled the string when something bad happened, like when he had measles. Eventually he was pulling it all the time: while he waited for something, when his child was sick, when his parents died, when he was bored, when his job was on the rocks, while he waited for a promotion, when his wife died and eventually when he was close to death. As he lay on his deathbed he looked back and realized...he had missed almost all of his life. He had no memories. In skipping the suffering he had never lived.
I feel like my life is flying by at the speed of light. My birthday is around the corner. I'm not really old but at the same time: I am. Living in the moment is beautiful. At the same time, life is lived so quickly! I'm off to India in a week. I leave the day after I turn 35. Is it scary or wrong to not have any clue where or what God wants of me beyond this next adventure? I'm not sure. But trusting....and grateful to live and experience all the things God has given me.
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Talking about guns and shooting is sort of hush-hush in my part of the world...and not because the people in my life don't own, shoot or carry pistol permits...it just isn't something you tend to bring up in casual conversation. It's kinda like not talking about how much money you make or how much your house cost or your actual weight.
So instead, I decided to throw it out there on the world wide web that I had THE BEST time this past weekend on Ladies Gun Day at a local shooting range! From shooting a shotgun at skeet to black powder civil war rifles; crossbows and compound bows to high-powered military grade rifles; revolvers to semi-automatic pistols...I think I shot more guns in one day than I ever will, definitely more than if you tally the last 30+ years of my life and possibly if you add everything else from this day forward. :o)
And I had SO MUCH FUN! I was with 50 other ladies, talking and laughing as we hit target after target, smiling in delight that I was actually shooting with some sort of accuracy! It was so exciting to see metal turkeys, pigs and pins fall over...to see clay pigeons break up in the air, and pull up a target and see a hole in the middle.
At one station I was consistently hitting the bottom left of the target, even though I was sighting the bulls eye. The instructor asked me to aim for the top right and I landed right in the middle. After I was done he took the gun, shot it himself, and then put the gun away. Aiming dead center wasn't helpful at all with a sight that was off-target.
Ding ding ding! Life-in-perspective moment...praying for God's sight as I focus on going on a year of mission. That is one target I hope to hit...if God wills!
Monday, May 11, 2015
I made a personal discovery today. I'm not very responsible and I'm very impulsive. My house is a mess (like huge moving...I've been out of town...I had carpet placed...and I just worked 7 out of 8 12-hour days MESS). I have no food in the house except dog food. I am supposed to work this afternoon at 4. And I need to get a run in since I wasn't able to get out over the weekend.
So of course I slept in until 10...received a text from a friend inviting me to meet her for coffee...looked outside and saw how hot it was...and decided a run along the water would be nice. So I went to Starbucks then hit a beach side park with my dog. Now I am resting before leaving for work in half an hour.
Glad God can work with this clay! :o)
Off to blow-dry my hair...